Today, I know that there is no wagon to fall off of. The proverbial wagon you speak of is not real. This is true because in order to have a wagon, your goal has to be one of the following:
1. Navigating some food plan that was created without regard to what your body’s needs are at the moment it is asking for nourishment. Or,
2. That you should toughen out certain emotions without using food even though it has been your lifelong coping mechanism.
If you are believing in a wagon, these are the goals driving the actions.
Your real goal is to accept what is going on in any situation and do your best to stay connected and aware. Let’s say you are having a difficult moment. Something is coming up for you with your thoughts and emotions and it is driving you to eat. Having an all-or-nothing goal leads you to the following conversation with yourself:
“Oh no. Shit. Here I go again. I’m stressed (or bored or frustrated or lonely or scared or anxious or whatever emotion you are feeling). I can’t eat. I won’t eat. I can’t do this again. I’m out of control. Why can’t I control myself? I’m a failure. Forget it. What’s the point? I already messed up. The day has been ruined. I’ll start again tomorrow.”
When your mind goes there, you have no opportunity to ask yourself what is coming up for you or what you may actually be needing. The stress of trying not to fall off the wagon shuts down access to that part of your brain which can help you stay present and aware to ask. If there is no wagon to fall off, the conversation can go something like this:
“Hmmmm… I find myself reaching for food. This is something I have done in the past. Lots of people do this for various reasons and it doesn’t make us bad people. It’s just what we learned to do in order to deal with things that feel too big to handle. I wonder why I’m doing this right now. I accept that there is a reason. I don’t have to try to control myself. There is no wagon to fall off. This is an opportunity for me. My soul is wanting to tell me something and if I try to listen, I may begin to hear it. I can take advantage of this opportunity or I can waste it by trying to control myself and feel disappointed.”
So, you see, if there is no wagon that you are trying desperately to stay on, you can spend your energy giving yourself the compassion, understanding and space you need to start feeling your feelings and determining what you actually need. Save the wagons for hayrides and start showing up for yourself.
Lori Montry, Mentor
Ever since I used the principles underlying the Nuuaria Method to change my thinking and learn to love myself unconditionally, I have lived a whole new life-A life full of love.
Through a beautiful process of healing, growth and reconnection with my sacred inner wisdom, I was able to break free from a multitude of food and body issues.
I hold a Bachelor of Science degree from Oregon State University and a law degree from Harvard Law School.